Not Worth It

I found that everything I did before the exam wasn't worth it. As I've mentioned in my last post, I had hard time going through the exam. I was really sick and I didn't go to school for few days just because of friends who hurt me so much. I was really depressed and worried about everything in life. I worried what would happen to me tomorrow. I worried whether my friends and teachers would scold me tomorrow. and, not only that. I lived in fear everyday as I was afraid of challenges that I was going to face in school. I'd psychological problem that time. Now, I've to forgive my friends. Although it's difficult, it's worth it and it's a test to learn. I called my friends few times using my house phone to handphone. and guess what!! The bill was very expensive:Rm 90+. It's really not worth it. I talked to my friend for half an hour every time I called her and it's from house phone to handphone. My mum was really angry with me and asked me not to call anymore. I talked to her to ask how I could stop worrying and be less sensitive to peoples' remarks. As my eyes were hurt badly 2 weeks before the exam, especially my right eye, I went to see an eye specialist doctor in Kuching Specialist Hospital. For the first time, he checked my eye pressure and said that my left eye pressure was higher than my right eye. This pain was followed by severe headache and he gave me an eye drop. The following week, I went to see him again and he said that my eye pressure had dropped and my pain was caused by too mush stress and anxiety about my exam. I also couldn't sleep for few nights. Sometimes, I didn't sleep at all the whole night. The doctor was afraid to give me sleeping pill as it would affect my exam. The doctor told me, "Ruth, you've to learn to relax. Take a deep breath and calm down. You just need to try your best in your exam and don't worry or anxious." I asked the doctor, "If something happen to me and my eye is still painful during the exam, what should I do?" He said," You've to face the pain as the exam is only for few hours." He also told me that it's very normal to have nightmare when we sleep. Every time when I sleep, I always have nightmare and sometimes it's a horrible nightmare. As I saw the doctor for twice, it costs me Rm 100+. It's really not worth it and I thought the most important thing in life now is good health. Now, I know that I shouldn't get angry with people who've hurt me. I shouldn't be angry with little, little thing in life. I thanked God for doing miracle to me. God is Almighty and He knows my needs. I took supplements such as Vitamin C to supply me with energy during the exam. I should never blame on God when He gives me sufferings and pain as I believe He has His purpose. Maybe He's teaching me to be strong to face and overcome challenges in life and surrender all my worries to Him. Now, I can sleep well at night. and I'm more relax. I feel that worrying does not do anyone good. I've learned not to give up on God. I was also sick during my mock exam and I didn't do well in the exam. Luckily, during my real exam, I wasn't sick. I prayed and prayed and finally God helped me out. I know He's with me and always listening to my prayer. Sometimes, my prayer isn't answered as He's teaching me to be patient. God is good all the time. Indeed He's loving and I've to trust Him. So, friends, please do not give up on God when you face troubles as He's there to guard and listen to us. We've to seek him and He will help us. I'm sharing my testimony.
God bless everyone.